I am in charlotte and have checked into hotel. On the drive from Batesburg I had 2.5 hours to think. Thinking as I drove it occurred to me that most people make decision not based on faith or hopes of a better life but fear. I recanted many of the things and conversations I had and it hit me how negative most people really are:
Employment
Stay at that job the money is good
If you leave you do not know what might happen
I cannot work for myself – how will I make money
I am not sure I am smart enough
I might not be able to find another job
etc
Religion
If I do not I might go to hell
I need to believe there is a bigger plan
I am scared of life and other people
I have to be on my best behavior because people are watching
What will _____ think
etc
Health
I need to loose weight because high blood pressure and/or diabetes run in my family
I am fat
I am ugly
etc
Relationship/Dating/marriage
I do not want to see them with someone else
I may not be able to find anyone better
I feel guilty
I have a lifestyle to support
The sex is good
He/she completes me – I was half a person before
I have to leave them before they leave me
We are so different it will never work
I am scared/worried _________
etc
Sex
I want to fit in
If I do not he/she may leave me
He/she did not make me have an organism
I was horny and my boy/girlfriend/spouse was not available
My body is all I can really offer them because I am too dumb for anything else
etc
Communication
If I let them know how I feel they may use it against me
Emotion is a sign of weakness
He/She should have been able to read my mind
I did wrong but instead of being honest I will pull away because they may not accept or forgive me
If I let them see the real me they may not like me
etc
Wealth
Rich people are evil
To get that much money they had to do something wrong
I value money so much I will sell my body and soul to obtain it
They owe me
Tell the bum on the street get a job scared they may try to rub or scam you or worse yet somehow rub off on you
etc
Self image
I am to fat
No one will like me if I am myself
I am ugly
I am skinny
I am too tall
I am too short
I have bad skin
I have bad hair
Without some level of drama I do not feel
I need him/her to tell me what to do because I cannot control myself
I do not understand why he/she cares about or see in me
etc
I could go on but hopefully you get the point. If not let me rephrase it this way
I want to life a healthy lifestyle so I will enjoy a high quality of life
I want to spend my life with her because I believe we can be good partners, compliment and help each other realize their potential
I will obtain a level of income consummate to the value to give other people
I treat people with the courtesy and respect knowing that they would do the same given the opportunity
Be blessed – I am going to change – go to gym and walk on treadmill then come back and prepare for tomorrow.
dcsillada - thanks - ironically fear causes us to make very bad decisions - and since this is he primary mode people use the implication is most of their choices are far from what they could be